Things!

I'm singing, James is reading os, and I'm in a chat with mel and alissa. It's very... interesting. lol. Chris is bulding a computer, and audrey has a bruising problem. I'm filling you in on the gossip, I feel like. Lol. M y room is a mess, I went to the library today, then to the candy store. I ate my tootsie rolls but I still have lik-a-stiks left! O.o *giggles*
James is still reading os, and now he's laughing at me. I'm number 5 on high scores of bang for your buck on ezone, and I'm in the top 100... Not sure what that means. Anyways, I should get back to me chat. Laters!!

Happy... Uh oh!

Hello! I'm happy today, a weird thing since I havn't talked to anyone today. Usually I get happy after I talk to people, but I'm happy and no one's even online! Wahahaha! But what does this mean? I am happy today, I was happy yesterday, and I was REALLY happy on monday. Will I be depressed tomorrow? Jesus loves you! Lol, I had a dream last night, it was so cool. God was in it and I sat on His lap and he told me he loved me. That's likely the reason I'm sooo happy today. Lol. It was a weird dream though. Anyways, I'm gonna go now. Laters

Hido. So I was gone all weekend with fife and drum. I had NO cell phone service the whole weekend, and I could have died. I needed (not wanted to, NEEDED) to talk to Audrey, and I couldn't. So I broke down and let another person in. I told myself I would not let people in. If I tell people things about me, they know how to hurt me. So I don't tell them what makes me tick, what makes me cry. And I did. I let her in. It's a whole matter of trust, I don't know if I can trust people. That's why I don't let them in. I think I can trust her though. I just don't know. Anywho, some people going to the dentist today, then we're going to see my new nephew! His name is Zephan James Myron. I'll leave the last name for you who know me to figure out, I don't want to post his whole name for everyone in the world to see. Lol. James and Myron for both his grandpa's. Anywho, I'm gonna go now. Later

Ok. I was on way too late last night... WAY too late. Then I didn't get to sleep for a while after that, so then I sleapt way late this morning and my mom came and told me I was going to get left... I dind' tknow we were going anywhere. lol. Anywho, so I washed my hair, got dressed, cleaned the table (can't do the dishes because we're out of soap) and got on here. My ear is infected again, (earring) I think I need that special kind of earing for unltra sensative ears or something.
Anywho, so I'm looking for funnies online. Hehe. I don't have a lot to say... Still havn't found my notebook but no one else knows where it is either. So that's blah. I would offer a reward but I havn't any money whatsoever. Lol. Well, ok, I have a dollar. But I'm buying something with that today. I really NEED chocolate. lol. Ok, I'm going now. Nothing to say, going now. Later

Ok. I was on way too late last night... WAY too late. Then I didn't get to sleep for a while after that, so then I sleapt way late this morning and my mom came and told me I was going to get left... I dind' tknow we were going anywhere. lol. Anywho, so I washed my hair, got dressed, cleaned the table (can't do the dishes because we're out of soap) and got on here. My ear is infected again, (earring) I think I need that special kind of earing for unltra sensative ears or something.
Anywho, so I'm looking for funnies online. Hehe. I don't have a lot to say... Still havn't found my notebook but no one else knows where it is either. So that's blah. I would offer a reward but I havn't any money whatsoever. Lol. Well, ok, I have a dollar. But I'm buying something with that today. I really NEED chocolate. lol. Ok, I'm going now. Nothing to say, going now. Later

short

listening to music, I have lots of CD's that I NEED to get. I will eventually. Rachael wants on now so I've gg. Maybe I'll write more later

I recently read part of a birth order book, telling about how people in what birth order act, stuff like that. I would consider myself a middle. Older than James, younger than Rachael, a bounce off rachael. The book said middle children often make their own 'family" outside of the house, so they feel like they have attention. Why then do I only have a couple close friends? is it because I'm scared to let people in? I think it must be. I think the answer is yes. I don't like new people, most of the time I don't like old people. I will only talk to new people if I'm terribly bored, or if I think I'll never see them again. I've lost my notebook, basically my diary. For all I know it's in the hands of one of my siblings and it's their nightly bedtime story. If that were the case, I would have to go die. It doens't look like anything special though, it just looks like a little notebook with flowers, however my family has seen me writing in it on many an occasion and I wouldn't doubt that they found it and wondered what was in it. Thoughts. Very personal, private thought that I don't want anyone else seeing. I guess I'll look for it tomorrow, it's not as if I can find it tonight. I don't think I'll ever find it. OR WORSE!!! MY GRANDPARENT'S HAVE IT!!! Oh wow, I really WOULD die. No. They would have given it back to me. *Whacks head* Stop worrying, nana! I need help. Maybe I'll go to Charter.

Why doesn't anyone see my pain?
Why do I have to wave it like a flag
in front of their faces so vivid, so plain?
Is there anyone out there, so keen
to see what I was before,
to see the joy I could have been?
Will things ever go back the same?
To when I was happy
Where life was a game
Does it have to be a war
no losers or winners,
just a show of pain where I'm the star?
Why am I cursed to walk this earth
when all I feel
is hatred and merth
When will I learn to love again?
will I be old, crippled, small,
before I have that to gain?
Why do I feel so empty, like no one cares?
is it because my mind is fooling me,
or is it real, just a life of ugly dares.
Oh, to have someone to pull me out
of this pit I'm in, this put of wanting love
a person who'll love me enough to shout
"I love you" from the rooftops of the inner city
a real live prince, or just a friend who loves me enough
to, when I need it, give me pity.
When will I learn, I already have that?
When will I find hope in the friends I have?
instead of thinking of my emptiness as so big and fat?
Please, someone, help me!
I need you to care
to help me see.

confusion...

It is soooooo boooooring today! Last night we had fife and drum practice, which was amazingly fun. lol. Preston wasn't there, so we went through the show, then the fifers went off and did their thing, and the drummer sat around and talked about random nothingness. lol. Then Terry called Preston to see where the heck he was, and Preston said he'd been in new york again and just got back so he didn't go. Lol. Then he actually said he'd give me drum lessons, so I'm happy. I was so weirdly happy yesterday, that I just know i'll be depressed tomorrow. That's just the way I work, it's pretty annoying. Yesterday in the morning I read some blogs and they made me way depressed. I don't like it. So I might just like copy all this stuff to my livejournal and make people not be able to see it. If other people's lives depress me I wonder if mine depresses other people? No, I think not. No one else reads this. Wow, I'm getting depressed already. I think I'll go off into some kind of dark hole and read my book. Book people I love. I love them because the'yre not real. They do crazy stuff, things happen to them, I get to love them, but they will never dump me for someone better. Why am I acting like this? No one dumped me. Recently. I'm going now. Later

*sings*

Hey there. So I went o concerts on saturday, they were way good. Superchick did this one song I totally loved. It was called "Princes and Frogs", then Phil Keaggy was real good with his guitar and everything, Then we left for a while and came back for Jars of clay who were wow, TobyMac was interesting... I loved it but I was a little disapointed, he didn't sing as much as I thought he did and it's blah, then meryme, they were awesome. There's lots about it but I'm listening to music and I'm liking it and not wantin to be distracted. *All prices start as frogs, and all gentlemen as dogs, just wait til it's plain to see, what we're growin up to be... Some frogs will still be frogs, and some dogs will still be dogs, and some boys will become men, just don't kiss us till then...* .... *why'dya have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else ets me frustrated...* Ok. all done. Going now

Fluff and nonsense

So today I got up, took a shower then did my chores. Then I mowed the grass for half an hour-forty five minutes and was melting so I cam eback in. Jon was on, he got sent home from school because he was sick... again. Lol. Now I'm talking to Chris. And Alissa now. :-p Not a lot else has happened... played Solitare and listened to my book. I'm getting far in it, I'm almost done. After I get done with it I'll read (yes, I'll actually read) a book. It's the third in the series. I thought the first one was bad, and then they made a movie about it and I told all my friends it was questionable, but then I reread it and it really wasn't that bad. It was good writing. So i might see the movie sometime. With Ruth I think. I need like 25 dollars for sat. but the only way to get it is the break into my change jar.... My saving money. I was savin it for a car, but so far I have 27 dollars and it'll take forever so I might just give up. Lol. Going now, ttyl.

Exciting day!

So today was really exciting. It started out me sleeping late, then playing some cards with myself (that wasn't so exciting) Then mom called me out, and a whole bottle of laundry soap had fallen off the washer and was covering over half of the laundry room floor. So I got to mop.. A lot. Lol. After that I folded my clothes and started sorting and aranging things. After that I decided I really needed to get my last shelf in my closet up, so I spent an hour and a half placing holes in the wall and I finally got it done! :-D It's not perfect, but it's pretty good. So now I'm off to put all my stuff back on the shelf and figure what I'm doing with it. But I'm feeling so smart that I figured out those weird instructions without anyone who actually would know what they're doing! :-p
I'm gonna go now. Put stuff up and sort junk. Laters:)

ticked...

I'm ticked. There's a big old rumor going around about someone I know. And I know the someone wouldn't do it. I'm on the trail of something that could possibly lose me a friend or two. If they're the ones who started it... No. There has to be a good explanation for it. Besides, those people weren't really my friends anyways. They're not people I tell my deepest darkest secrets to in any case. Going

worked

Ok, so it worked. It's not done yet, and it had to be changed and stuff to be able to work, but it did end up working. So I actually have a floor now. I moved some stuff around and my room looks lots bigger now. Lol. So anywho, I cleaned my room mostly last night, I just have to do a couple more things today but they're easy (vacuum and make the bed... take the trash out:-p)
So I'm gonna go now because nothing eventful has happened today, and probably nothing will. Later

closet

*Cries* i feel like such a brat. my dad FINALLY got me a thing to put my clothes on so i can clean my stupid room, and he was actually trying to be nice and get me something better than what i had, but i took one look at it and knew it wouldn't fit. im depressed now, i was crying for ten minutes and now hes in there, trying to put it up wher ei know it wont fit! and im going to cry again. it's just ive been waiting for a week to get it and then he tries to be nice and it doe3snt work! its not going to work. i know it won't. i wasnt feeling cheerleaderish today, i wasnt depressed but i wasn't feeling peppy, and i saw chris but i wasnt in much of a talking mood. i can fake it but i didnt even feel like doing that. im going now... don't know what to do, i cant get in my room because my dads trying to mkae the stupid thing work. i know it wont.

*Cries* i feel like such a brat. my dad FINALLY got me a thing to put my clothes on so i can clean my stupid room, and he was actually trying to be nice and get me something better than what i had, but i took one look at it and knew it wouldn't fit. im depressed now, i was crying for ten minutes and now hes in there, trying to put it up wher ei know it wont fit! and im going to cry again. it's just ive been waiting for a week to get it and then he tries to be nice and it doe3snt work! its not going to work. i know it won't. i wasnt feeling cheerleaderish today, i wasnt depressed but i wasn't feeling peppy, and i saw chris but i wasnt in much of a talking mood. i can fake it but i didnt even feel like doing that. im going now... don't know what to do, i cant get in my room because my dads trying to mkae the stupid thing work. i know it wont.

Fun, Scary, and just plain weird.

Hey! Wasn't able to get on yesterday because we left in the morning for church, then we went to the state fair. I went around with Alissa and her dad for a while, like 2 or 3 hours probably, then saw some concerts. They were ok... I like a couple of them, and get this, Ruth's old percussion teacher and one of the dudes I asked to give me drum lessons was there and he was playing in a band! Lol. I bought one of their CD's, their songs were neat and stuff so:)
Also while I was there, I found free tickets to an all day concert thing with tobyMac, MercyMe, Phil Keaggy, SuperChic[k], Nicole C. Mullen, and... *thinks* Jars of Clay. So Ipicked up 10, hehe. It's on Satruday (SO lucky, if it had been any other weekend I wouldn't have been able to do it!) in South Bend. It's gonna be me, Rachael, Dad, Alissa, Audrey, and maybe a couple other people. Least I think Audrey and Alissa are going, not sure. Anywho, so today I got up at like 6:45 and came to my grandparent's house, where I sleapt longer than I meant to (part of the reason being I was out til 1:00 last nightO.O) then ate lunch, talked to grandma for a while, then Audrey got here. We talked for a while then went to the mall which was fun. We got candy and went into hot Topic. It was the first time for both of us, and we decided we didn't like it very much. The people were scary (especially the lady with something in the teens visible piercings, including a huge one in her nose...) and the music was scary, and the stuff was scary... it was also very drowded together and there were several people in there, all scary looking. So we left rather quickly.:-p Then we hung around til it was time to get back here, and Jordan picked her up. So now I'm looking at emails and writing here. I want to talk to people but I'm on msn and i can't figure out how to get on AIM, and they're on aim. lol.
Ok. I think i'm gonna sign off now and go play a game or call someone. Later peoples... Oh! One more thing, when we were in the mall, we saw this guy who was at the fair like very day and I thought he was cute. lol, so Audrey got to see him:-p He was with his girlfriend, I've only seen them not together once. Lol. Anywho, I'll get on tomorrow or something probably. Laters

So I have tons of stuff I'm thinking about these days. None I want to make known to the general public so I won't put them here, but this is pretty much like my journal and stuff now. It's pretty cool. But anywho, I want to talk to Audrey about it, but I don't know really how to start or if she'll be sick of me by the time I get done. Lol. I'm talking to her right now, I'm trying to decide if it's more of a phone thing though. ok, spilled. laters!

stuff?

Today was... interesting... We ("we" being Rachael, James, Dad and myself) went to a parade in Colfax, we played w/ the corp and marched.. a long way. Lol. Then we went over to the feast sampler, which was awesome. We played in the wabash a little bit, lol, though we weren't supposed to get dirty. Michael got his arm stuck in what will be forever to us, (weather it was really or not doesn't mean anything, but to us it's) quicksand. Lol
Trying to find a time Audrey and I can do something before school starts (for her) on tuesdy, but the only day we've both got is monday and I dunno if that'll work, plus she's sick right now so. I made two candles, one was really cool but one of the mom's kinda messed it up, and the other one just didn't work. Lol, so it's ugly, but it might work. Lol. I also ate fried bread (REALLY good) and got two blisters from hiting my drum. Before the first show, Michael got sick (that was right after he got in trouble for being dirty, so that was like kerosine on the burning fire for terry) so he didn't do the show, and after an hour or so someone called Joe and had him come pick Michael up and take him home.
Oh wow, the monday thing might actually work... Oh! Aaron! *goes and askes Aaron if he got me my "closet"...* he didn't!! im so stinking MAD now! omg! so i can't fix my room, i can't do anything! im going to have to hang out in ruth's room the entire weekend! because i cant stand the stinkin mess of my room! GRRRLE! im mad now. But I'm going to go... now. Tikvah's taking out all her toys and putting them in plastic bags. Now I get to clean them up, joy. Later.

blah

Today I'm feeling blah... Yesterday I was spilling my guts to my best friend, and I accidentally said something I shouldn't have said, it wasn't even that it would have been soo bad, it was just the wording I used and I honestly meant nothing by it. Anyways, my friend told this other guy who yelled at me, cussed at me, then blocked me. All while telling my friend that it wasn't any big deal. I just don't know what's going on now. I didn't mean to make it sound like it was his fault or anything. I feel terrible about it, even though his sister (my other best friend) told me not to worry about it. Then just now I got an email from my friend i was talking to last night, saying he was sorry and I have no reason to forgive him or to be his friend. He's right. But the thing is, even if he's right, I may have no human reason to forgive him, but with all that Jesus has forvigen me of, how can I hold that one thing against him forever? Also, there's no way I'll ever stop being his friend, I mean no matter what he does I'm going to love him no matter what. That's what friends do, and he's one of the best friends I've ever had in my life. He's so important to me, if I lost him because I was mad or some other stupid reason, I would hate myself. I still love him, it's just that right now, I don't want to talk to him. I don't trust myself right now to be able to talk to him and not either get mad or start crying. Though perhaps I'll go and call... maybe. he's sleeping now so i guess ill wait. laters.

Heydo. So nothing really happened today, I got up late, sat around playing cards with myself, did chores then did some stuff and went to the library with Rachael, Tikvah and James. I got this book, it's called "In the that room with God". It's about these five teenagers who are in a chat room online and this person whos screen name is "God" comes in and he acts like Him and everything, I think in the book it actually is but I'm only halfway through the book so. It's real weird. But also there's LOTS of good stuff in there, the people quote the Bible and stuff a lot so it's neat:)
So after we got back from the library, I basically hid in my room and listened to a book on tape, then got done with that and I'm reading that book. It's very hard for me to read though, relax at all when my room is a mess... I don't remember if I mentioned here earlier or not, but my "closet" broke. (the pole thing in that little nook in my room broke) So I have my clothes all over my floor (which wouldn't be so bad if they were folded, but they're on hangers so they really can't be made any smaller than they are. Anywho, so my room's a mess and I hate it. Besides that... I havn't done anything. Lol. I expect by tonight I'll have finished at least 2 of the things I got from the library today. That's how I am with library stuff, I get it and you don't see me in a few days, then I'm back to life. Lol. Except now, we've been going to the Attica library so we can go like every other day, so I really never get "done" with everything. Hehe, so you may not see me for a good long while! I had to tell myself to stop with the book and check my email or I'd be mad when it was time for me to go to sleep. Lol. I'm gonna go now, I have an email I want to re-look at, it was from this thing Mom signed me up for, and it said I had to activate my account and give it a screen name and password and stuff, but when I got there it said I had already activated it, so I figured Mom had done it, but when I asked her she said she didn't so I have to go back and see what it actually said. Laters:)

today...

Heydo, today I sleapt til like 10 then layed around in my bed til 11 ish. Then I did my chores, played with Tikvah and got ready to go to the State Fair where we had to do our share the fun thing. I thought I was going to go to a drum lesson tomorrow, but guess what, things changed so I probably don't get a lesson at all... ever. So I'm kinda mad. There were these computers at the fair and one had paint, so I colored a tree and it was on fire and another guy came by and he's like "that's kind of morbid"... He was pretty funny:-p
Right now I'm looking at emails... I guess we're going to starte fair again on sunday, maybe on friday and maybe maybe on saturday, though I doubt that one. I've been watching Emma, I don't think I've ever watched that before. Anywho, it's pretty good. I think I'm gonna go now because it's really late and I have some emails to look at and perhaps reply to and... bedtime stuff to do... even if I just sit around in my bed played solitair or war with myself and listening to a book on tape. Hehe. Anywho, I'm gonna go. Ttyl:)

wanna read a ton on blog?

wowza! I havn't been here in forever!!! So what's happened... Too much to write now, but I'll work on it a little. K, in 4-H I got...
Sewing: blue
Scrapbooking: Reserve Champion
Shooting Sports:Reserve Champion
Ceramics: Champion
Photography: Blue Star
Consumer Clothing: Blue Star
Jr. Leaders: Completion.
After 4-H, I basically just went on with normal life, then last week I was in New York, Niagara Falls and Ticonderoga, and I had TONS of fun there. There's a lot of stuff about it, like... We'll start with....
Day One:
We left at 5:15 on Wednsday, August 3rd, where we sleapt for a few hours, and when we stopped for breakfast, James went with some of his friends and Rachael and I got Mark and Shara in our van. (Oh, before this, we went to Ohio, the weekend before. We rode with Mark, Shara and Michael and watched Phantom of the Opera, where Michael talked most of the way through it and it was very annoying. lol) Anyways, we played Nintendo (dad and James figured out a way to hook it up to the portable DVD player in our van) and watched movies. We got to the hotel, I don't remember what one it was, but we stayed there two nights. It was pretty good. Clean, gave us breakfast, but it had no pool:( We went out for supper, I think my fam ate Subway. Then, OMG! We got to Canada, on total accident! The bridge was stupid, so we accidentally got on the Canada bridge instead of the New York bridge and we went accross the border, then, get this, we actually got OUT and walked into a building where we had to give the dude our names and birthdates, then we went back to New York:-DThen we went to see Niagara Falls at night (the best, if you ever go, be sure to take a look when it's dark outside, but before midnight because they turn the lights off at midnight) then we went back to the hotel and watched the X-games on ESPN until we went to sleep.
Day Two:
We got up, I don't remember what we did... Oh yes I do, we went to Fort Niagara and performed there, where I got overheated and almost got sick. I then took off everything besides my uniform pants and the tank top I was wearing underneath my uniform shirt. I then sat around for half an hour doing... nothing. Lol. Then we ate lunch and went back to the hotel. There and changed then headed out to Niagara Falls again, where we went on the Cave of the Winds, an awesome trail type thing through part of the Bridal Vail falls (if that's what it's called... it's something like that) so tyhat was awesome. Then we went back to the hotel and atched TV... Again. Lol.
Day Three:
We left at like 8 in the morning (Eastern time, so it would have been 7 here) and drove like all day until we got to Ticonderoga, where we stayed in a dirty Super 8 motel and ate at a dirty little subway and went to a dirtly little wal mart.:-p it was a very dirty little town, right on the edge of New York, almost in Vermont. We then watched more X-games (rachael's choice)
Day Four:
We got up and went to for Ticonderoga for the National Mustar, where tons of fife and drum corps get together and play and stuff, we went there and it was pretty cool. Then we... *thinks* We were there pretty much all day, but when we got back we went and got Michigans, which are like Chily dogs, but in New York they're called Michigans. They were hot dogs on a weird bun with kind of sloppy joe meat on it and cheese. It was pretty good, then we went out and got pizza from a tiny, dirty pizza place and took it in the van and went to an ice cream place. Well, I'm used to Indiana larges where they're not very big, so I orered a large cone and it was so stinkin huge I got a stomache ache eating it! Lol, but it was very good. I'm not joking, there were 7 inches of ice cream on top of that cone. It was HUGE. Anywho, after that, we went back to the hotel room, and we were gonna just watch TV til bedtime, but Rachael wanted to go to a jam they were having at the fort, so dad took her, I locked James and myself out of our room, James went into a room with Stevie, Caleb, Michael and Mark, and I went into a room with Janene, Shelly, Carissa, Colin and Shara. We talked and had tons of fun. Hehe.
Day Five:
We got up at 5 in the morning, so I could take a shower and get my stuff ready to go, (btw, that's 4 our time, but by then I was on eastern time) then I went back to sleep til 6 because my back hurt and I didn't feel like moving, anyways, we went driving, we drove to someplace in Ohio where we stayed at another Super 8 Motel. This one was one of those scary ones with the doors on the outside, so Rachael and I were totally freaked out, (Kori, you can relate to this:-p) but there was a pool, an outside one so we went in there for like half an hour, at which point our director Terry came out and says: "Kids, Over here.... FIFE AND DRUM KIDS OVER HERE NOW! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!" *kids go over* "We're leaving right now, you're all wet and you probably don't have towels out with you, but we're loading up and going to another hotel." *fife and drum kids are very confused* Hannah: What's wrong? Mr. Robins: The rooms are discusting Hannah: what was in them? Mr. R: I'll let your dad tell you if he wants you to know. It's disctusting
Later, I asked my dad what was up, and he said something something I couldn't understand don't tell anyone else... Lol. So we went to this other hotel, it was uber uber good, pool open til 11, shower curtains matching bedspreads good. Lol. BUT OMG! While we were at the other place, in the pool, these two girls came out in bikinis, and Rachael's like "Mark those girls are going to go after you." and he's like "WHY???" and then, the one girl cannon balled into the SHALLOW end (conveiniently where he was), hit her butt on the bottom, came back up and looked right at him and said "I didn't know if was that shallow!" (while holding her rear end.) Lol, we Rachael was going to pretend she was his girlfriend if they tried making him like them or something:-p But anyways, after the nice pool, we were watching the Discovery channel, we were seeing if someone could actually cannonball themselves from Canada into the United States (illegal imigrants), and Rach, James and dad all fell asleep but I saw the end then turned it off.
Day Six:
Drove, we were going to switch James after lunch, we Shara, Mark, Rachael and I had the DVD player, we were going to finish a movie, but after lunch we had to split and different way so we could do something for Ruth at the State Fair. So it wasn't really fair but oh well.
That leads up to today. We went to the library, got some stuff... My "closet" broke (my rod thing that I hang my clothes on broke) so I need a new one so my clothes are trying to be in a corner but they're kinda spread out all over everywhere:-p Tomorrow I guess we're doing out share the fun acts at the state fair, blah, (Rachael's idea) I didn't really want to do it, the Unknown Challenge one I really didn't want to do, Is the Train Coming would have been fine. Anywho, so I have to find my costumes and stuff for that... HAHA! Then on Thursday I MIGHT get to go to a Snare Drum lesson!!! I'm very excited about that:) in case you didn't figure that out. Well my word, I feel like I've typed my entire life story here. Lol. You know the problem with these things? You can't always say what you're thinking. Say you're mad at a friend, you don't even want to be their friend anymore, you can't say that on here because your friend might find it. Lol. Or whatsay you feel really terrible and want to cuss at something, you don't because everyone will see it (not that I have that problem:-p I rarely feel like cussing especially online and when I do, I usually don't care who sees it, it's also never worse than saying something like "I'm sick of this crap" or something like that. Something that most people would say normally.) Welp, I'm gonna go, I'm been typing for like half an hour or 45 minutes.:-p later peoples!