Monday, October 30, 2006

Drumming Drum Major?

Hey. Well, here's the deal: Drum major or drummer? That's my choice, and my vote has to in by next monday. What to do? Terry says "do what you'll be happy doing, we can find a new drum major." Preston says he really wants me to be a drummer (last week) but "do what YOU want to do" (this week). Shara says "You can't listen to what other people say, hon! It'll ruin your life!" and Michael says "well if you don't want it then I don't think you should do it." Well. For me to "do what I'll be happy with" that's not as easily done as said. I don't think I'll be happy if I just let drum major slip away without even trying it. I also know that it's possibly (likely even) for me to like drumming more. What would I do if I ended up hateing drum major? Would I be allowed to quit? To make myself happy, that's what it would take. Is my director willing to let me try? I don't know. Will I really be happy? WHO knows?

Friday, October 27, 2006

Ouch!

Ouch! Lol, three hours of cheerleading (building) plus an hour and a half of basketball practice... Any guesses? Yeah, I'm really sore! The cheerleading thing was actually really fun, so that was cool... Then basketball practice was just hard. Lol, still good but hard. was gonna help Tyler's move today but they dind't get the house today, so Idk when they'll be movng... Then tomorrow I've got to park at a Purdue football game (oh boy!) and then go to a costume party... Whcih I havn't got a costume for. =/
Yeah, that's it. Later

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Margarite

yeah... wrote this last night after I did not get the part of Margarite. Sabrina will be awesome at it and this is kinda lame but it's how I felt so here it is.

I'm suffering
from a broken heart.
Trying to get past the pain

This isn't a guy.
It's really lame.
It's actually a play.

A part I wanted
more than anything
and wasn't good enough to have.

It hurts to be
left with the scraps.
Fifteen lines in two hours.

Really crushing
for a girl
who wants to be an actress.

I prayed about this
every night
for three weeks in a row.

Asking God
to give me this
the part written for me.

I guess I'll be
asking again
for God to help me accept

that I didn't
get the part.
That I might as well give up.

I should have gotten
my hopes up so high
when I knew they would be crushed.

I'm suffering
from a broken heart.
There's nothing left to gain.

Co op, Drama: did not get the part I wanted. The one I wanted more than I've ever wanted anything. I let out three tears in class and needed lots of hugs. =P Then I held it in until five hours later when I called Audrey and cried for like half an hour straight. Then basketball which was hard enough to make me forget about it for an hour. I feel like a brat, lol. I'm just trying to get over it.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Mississiniwa

Well... I though about posting a very long time ago about our last event, Mississiniwa, and I never did. Bad, bad me. Well here 'tis:

Friday: My family left our house around... one-ish, went to my dad's old college room mate's house. He's pretty cool, we've been going there on friday for a few years now and it's cool. We played games, ate pizza, drank vault and coke... Good times. We finally went ot bed around 12:30 but guess what? I coudln't get to sleep. Lol, I was finally almost asleep, and their dumb clock went off saying it was two in the morning. Lol, so I sat there thinking and stuff for another hour and i fianlyl well asleep at about 3:30. Woke up the nest morening at 6:30 and...

Saturday: Up, shower, uniform, breakfast, gone away to our event. IT WAS SOOOOO COLD!!! Lol, I dropped my sticks like six times because I coudln't even feel my fingers so hold on the them. When we got done with opening I took my drum off and dropped in on the ground because I coudln't hold it. It was terrible! Lol. Jon found us (Jon is a guy I met at the dance at the Feast. He's real nice) and we talked for a bit, Rach and I got hot chocolate and went walking around... To get Rachael's uniform for 1812 musik. (yes, I meant to spell it with a k! Lol)
We hung around, performed, hung around... performed... lol, our drum solo was really good... That's about it. Oh no it's not! Jon asked me if I wanted to go to the dance with him, I told him maybe. Lol, later I told him no, but I ended up dancing with him anyways. I just didn't wanna be stuck with one person the whole night if I didn't wanna be. Finally we went back to our church that we were staying in and set up our beds... Played basketball a little bit, played chinese freeze tag a little, then Shara, Rachael, Mark and I sat around and ate cookies. Then we added cheeze its and "Elf" (Michael brought it) until bedtime. Something really really funny happened though, Lorne was looking for another shower (there was only one there) and he was running across the floor and he fell into the baptismal!!! Hehe, I wasn't there but just hearing about it, it was sooo funny.

Sunday: This was really the interesting day. We did our normal stuff... Rachael performed with 1812 some. Ruth told us stories and Jon came around and got way into hearing them. Some of them were really funny, lol. Like "The twelve dancing princesses" and they went to a magical land called Wally World and danced in the shoe section, but they never had shoes their size so their dad dind't like them having to buy new ones when theirs were worn out. Lol, and the sea witch in "The Little Mermaid" was named Madonna... It was really funny. Anywho, Terry left me and said "Hannah if I'm not back by 11 start the corp playing" I said ok, and went on listending to the story. At about 11:10 we started playing, everyone yelling and talking at the same time and real annoying, and no one wanting to play (Mark and Shara and Michael were good though, it wasn't their fault) and it was really frusterating. Like I thought we were supposed to go for about an hour, we ended up only for half an hour and then I was like fine, if you don't wanna play anymore we won'y play anymore. So then I went off to the bathroom just to get away from them, lol. Got back and they were still kinda being stupid so I was like "Michael, you wanna go somewhere?" (Michael's the bass drummer) and he's like sure, but we didn't get very far and I was like "I need a hug" and then I cried on him. It was actually really sweet 'cause he just hugged me and let me cry on him. It was like, the whole thing with the kids being brats, Rachael's last event, and my last event as drummer all rolled into one big cry. Lol, and everyone else stood around lookng at me like i was some kinda animal=P
Anywho, we went to closing and Terry said that John (from 1812) was going to come pick up Rachael and I had to lead everyone back. Well I wasn't happy about that because I wanted to drum my last thing, so I went and talked to Rachael and she didn't know anything about it, and said when she figured it out that she wasn't going with them so it made me happy. Lol, Terry hadda run back and get my drum and we finished it out. After, Marissa started crying. That was the end of it! Lol, Rachael started crying, then Michael, me, Stevie, Mark, Jerry, Terry... Lol. Michael cried for a really long time and it was really cute because I said it was my last event playing with the guys and he said "No just me because you don't know about Alex and Lorne" lol (something I said in my scrapbook) During this time, I said "no one cried when Patti left" and everyone laughed (Patti was the old drum major).
Something annoying that happened: Charissa! Omg, she kept on hanging around Jon even though she has a boyfriend and she's a year older than him, she kept on flirting with him. I don't like like him, but I wanted to talk to him because he's pretty cool, but we couldn't lose her and she was being annoying. Lol. I thought, at least, Idk about him. Either way, we talk through email so it's ok.
That finishes my account of Mississiniwa 1812, 2006, Rachael's last performence with the Voyageur's, and my last performence as a drummer, which still makes me sad. I guess we'll all just have to move on and accept the change.


Hannah

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

recap

Well, I decided "myspace blog is fine, I'll just use that." Then I decided I never actually blog on there! I need to get back here and write stuff. Yes. Well, basketball starts up again on Thursday, Idk how that'll be. My mom has reservations about me playing this year because of the coaches, but I think I'll still be able to. (I better be able to!!)
I performed this the Voyageur's at the Feast of the Hunter's Moon last weekend, and that was pretty good. This weekend we have Mississiniwa (1812) which will be Rachael's last event. After that I will take over drum major which is scary. It's exciting, too, but more scary. Lol
Yesterday was co op, that was fun... Then we had 4-H awards night, and that was fun. Also had tryouts for the play. I think I know who will get Percy and Chauvelin, but Margarite is a big unknown. I want that part desperately but there are some really good girls trying out for it so I probably won't get it=(
Now I'm gonna go on and so someting else... Maybe.


Hannah