stupid life

life stinks! eat, sleep, school, friends, computer, cards, eat, school, music, depression, people not being friends who you think are, people having fun without you (why would I be upset about that? because I'm not having fun. That's why. I'm so selfish! I refuse to be jealous!) why am i always depressed? im so stupid. five friends, ok? five friends, that's why. audrey. chris. alissa. shara. mark. five. count them, you can use the fingers on one hand. ok, so i have other friends, but i can't tell them things. these are the only people i can tell things to. these are the only people i was stupid enough to let into my life. lol. the only people i let in, and gave opportunity to hurt me. i guess that's me. i chose good people. i hope. no, i know. im such an ape. ugh. i wish i had a life. i went and bought belts yesterday. im so stupid. i wanted something so i bought belts. why am i so misunderstood?! yesterday, mr. sebald is like "hannah, what do you think? you're so quite, what's your oppinion?" i'd been giving my stupid oppinion for an hour! i lost my notebook. i cant find it, and i miss it. and i need to knowwho has it. im going to wallow in the stupidity of the teenage life. that sounds like a relientk song.:-p gone.